it wasn’t supposed to be like this

I cant stop thinking  It wasn’t supposed to be like this But I have to keep remembering This is a lie Bc I have a savior Who promises that Because I’m his  I’m always where I’m meant to be  Whether in a valley Or the sunniest of mountaintops  It  All Has Reason It All HasContinue reading “it wasn’t supposed to be like this”

give it all away

Adolescent six feet under Gave his life in ’42 Shot five times by Swastika battalions— “That’s what I paid for freedom  But you’d give it all away.” Father of five beneath A block of cement Gave his life in 1863 Looked behind him At his black brothers— “That’s what I paid for freedom  But you’dContinue reading “give it all away”


The holidays used to be about Ritual. / Thanksgiving was  A grandiose table and Golden decorations and Pumpkin pie candles; Christmas was The thick smell of a warming fireplace and A friendly Christmas tree and Bing Crosby singing over the stereo. But holidays are different this year. / Mom shaved her head last night. TheContinue reading “Ritual”

c word

I was standing in the kitchen when my dad gave me the news it was slow motion his words went into my ears to my brain my brain chewed on the information spat out things i’d seen in movies, read in books except in those i was always the viewer it seemed like i wereContinue reading “c word”

used to

The thunder used to scare me, used to hunt me in my room; Thirsty grumblings launched their shadows at the ceiling o’er my tomb. Darkened rumblings casting light from a forever hungry gut Leading silver chains to smoldering cells from flames and heaven cut.   Now I lie awake in bed when I can hearContinue reading “used to”